Ladytron

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By Lilly Sayenga

Now that the faces pass by me again

I realize I can be seen

and I think that

I am more invisible

and there’s no way they could like me

I shut myself off from feeling

Because apathy is better than pain

I blast my childhood electroclash

And I wish that i was still the same

And regretting that I am

.

I have loved no one who has loved me

i have felt nothing that has wanted me

i have moved through this world

as an agent

untouched

Forcing myself to make decisions

that damage my trust

.

I am going to become

one day

what i wanted to be

I will be what someone wants

and they will like me

And I won’t be issuing

any more apologies

.

But i put this idea into

everyone’s head

A rolled-up scroll of paper

tinted with hair dye

dead flowers

And existential dread

You all think I’m insane

and i probably am

That’s why I’m here now

That’s why i shrink back

.

From anyone who looks like

they see it too

Anyone who looks like

they look like you

Let me be clear

I know myself well

And let me be clear

You can go to Hell

but I wish I had something

Some sign that i

could mean something to someone

That it’s not just ‘them to I’

.

So I am removing this vicious tuft

i am proclaiming myself

an eternal lover

eternally unloved

And I think i’ll have to live in the apathy

I think i’ll just need

to wait for someone to see

.

i’m not who you want me to be

I love you

And i wish you’d care about me

But I’m just a loser

in spite of this speech

With dye-stained hands

and love wrongly bequeathed

.

But one of these days

I won’t be

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